Update…kind of. ^^;
Ok, I’ve been thinking about updating this like everyday. What makes it even worse I actually have time to do it since I get home before 1pm and that’s with me walking. Why haven’t I? I got caught up on youtube watching one channel and it’s hilarious. I don’t have to think about anything and it’s on a playlist so I don’t even have to click once I start one video. It just keeps going…for hours. Yep.
My other reason, I just feel exhausted like emotionally and physically, but mostly emotionally. I don’t even know why. I’m always tired even if I go to bed early. I wake up at the crack of dawn basically all week, so maybe that doesn’t help. Then this cold weather sucks. And I might be getting sick again.
I know I know. AGAIN?!
I started coughing this week and yeah…I’ll take some meds this weekend.
Which I don’t have any plans, besides maybe staying in. Because I’m going to the store tomorrow to avoid it during the weekend. I’m just tired and kind of want to be alone but not really. I don’t know what I want. I wish I could just sleep all weekend and be back up and running later.
You know it’s kind of messed up when I still haven’t bought Jaejoong tickets for his concert/birthday party and he’s having it at KU (Korea University) AND I wouldn’t have to go to work the day before his concert or after. Yet, I’m like “eh….do I want to go? I don’t know. Probably not.” Like really?! That’s so not like me. It’s Jaejoong like Kim Jaejoong that created my bias list in the first place 10 years ago. And now I’m all eh..it’s Jaejoong. Granted I’ve seen him a lot since I’ve been here but still. It’s freaking Jaejoong and I’m all eh…whatever *shrugs*. *sigh*
Then there are concerts next month that I wanted to go to and now I’m all “um…I don’t know if I want to go anymore.” It’s a concert! I’m mad at myself because I’m all “eh…hmm….probably not…” Where I would normally be like “OMG *fights to get tickets through all that Korean* YES!!!!! TICKETS!!! GUESS WHO’S GOING TO A CONCERT?! THIS GIRL~!”
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Maybe it’s that quarter of a life crisis getting to me. I know that kind of hit me hard when this year came in and I realized I turn 25 this year. The horror.
Omg what if it’s that, the cold weather, having no like real friends out here in Yangpyeong to hang out with and I’m getting depressed? That totally could be the reason why. I love how I’m diagnosing myself while typing this, but if it was someone else I would so totally guess that. Who knows…
Anyways, hopefully tomorrow or this weekend at the latest I shall update on this week. Right now I’m tired and about to go to bed even though it’s…not even 9pm yet. I’ll just wake up around 1 or something anyways. I don’t even sleep normally anymore. *sigh*
Anyways…until next time~