Something is weird going on with…

My parents.

My parents are divorced and as of this year, my mom refuses to talk to my dad. My sister and brother don’t talk to him either. I’m the only one that communicates with everyone. -.-

Anywho, earlier this week my mom sent a random message apologizing about things she has done in the past that she realized she should not have done. You can tell that she regrets it and such. To be honest it was a great shock. Like yes, what happened was bad and stuck with us kids but at the same time it’s in the past.

Then, this morning my dad asked if we hated him especially since my brother and sister won’t talk to him at all.

So, I had to explain our side to him and why they are the way they are.

Our childhood wasn’t great, there were a lot of things that happened that I rather keep in the past. Yes, it scarred us and caused damage. Some of it we still carry until this day.

At the same time it helped made us the strong adults we are today. I can never hate my parents. They are my parents. My siblings and I are apart of each of them. Without them, we wouldn’t be who we are in general. I might hate some of the things they have done to us, but I will never hate them.

Just them saying the simple word “sorry” and actually truly meaning it means the world to me. With them both understanding the pain that they caused us mentally and physically finally. We went through a lot. My parents were young and their families weren’t really friendly toward each other. There was a lot going on and they didn’t make the right decisions. It happened. People make mistakes. Now it seems they have been thinking about it a lot and wanted to make amends.

Of course, I forgive them. Like I said before they are our parents. I will never forget what happened. I can’t. It’s embedded into me deeply. The pain and scars will always be there but not as bad as before. I can only make sure to keep pushing forward to have a better future.

In the end, they are our parents. I still love them no matter what.