Random thoughts
I have a lot of random thoughts, though now they are more focused on my life. In all honesty I think it’s because I turn 25 in less than 2 weeks.
My main thoughts though are on who’s in my life at the moment. Mostly the friends aspect. There are some people that I know might not be around in a year or two, some might make it 5 years or more There’s a lot I don’t see past 5. It’s sad, but true. It’s a part of life. Or maybe I’ve gotten to the point, I feel like I’m wasting time and my emotions with certain people. No need to have extra stress for no reason. From a previous post, you guys should know why I don’t need the extra stress.
I like people to be honest with me. If I’m honest with them, I just expect it in return. Not someone beating around the bush or flat out lying. I know…I know everyone it seems tends to lie this day and age. But why? I don’t understand it. I understand some of the little “white lies” but come on, just lying about crap when it would be better to just tell the truth. If it’s gonna hurt just do it, don’t pretend things are fine and hurt me worse later. I tend to find out things later anyways, so just tell me the truth.
Not like I have any right to judge another person. I am who I am. Not someone you wish or want me to be. If you like something weird, fine whatever rocks your boat. I might not like it, but we can’t like everything someone else likes. If it’s super weird and maybe illegal, um we gonna need to talk about that and I just might have to cut ties. Like they say, “you are the company you keep.” I have exceptions to that, but there are some things you just don’t want associated with you.
Lying, tends to have me cut friendships quickly. I don’t like it, so I don’t put up with it. Not saying you have to tell me everything. If we aren’t super duper best friends or whatever, I can care less about half the stuff you do. But if you are going to bring up a topic and lie while talking about it. That makes no sense to me. Just don’t bring it up. That would be the smart choice. Luckily I don’t deal with this too often. Probably once or twice in the last year and well those people are no longer friends.
My thing is, just be yourself with me. If you feel you have to act a certain way I’m going to pick up on it. Being fake is equal to lying for me. So yeah just don’t do it. I’m an odd..unique person myself. I wouldn’t change for anyone. It’s what makes me well me. We all have quirks. Just have to find people who understand and accept them for what they are.
I have very few “best friends” and even amongst them I only have one that has been there through a lot of major events (outside of my mom) that if I wanted to spill every single thought I have at any given moment or send them a random message in the middle of the night about the most oddest thing (which I have), I can and feel completely fine about doing so, because they understand me and accept me fully for who I am. They know they can do the same. We have had plenty of random moments like that. But that’s another post that might be kind of long. So I should save that for another time.
Until next time.