New job, city, and so on.

I moved here on the 29th. The apartment is like half the size of my previous one but not bad. The longer I’m here the more I’m enjoying it.

My new school is small too. There’s only one class of each grade K-6. So yeah. The class sizes are small since there are less than 80 students in general at the school. Not going to lie I thought that it would be weird but instead, after being able to teach 2 classes today, I see that I might enjoy this more. I can focus on certain students more and they are so eager to speak English. It makes me happy.

The city is well actually a city. It’s a lot more convenient. If it had a subway station it would be even more so, but the bus system is pretty nice and cheaper than me taking a taxi constantly. I tend to wake up and leave my place by 6:50 now instead of 7:20 because well I need to be at the bus stop to catch the earlier bus by that time and it takes around 15 minutes to get to it. So yeah. I can take a later bus, but I’d get to school like 20 minutes before I need to be there. Plus, these buses tend to run a little behind. Ok anywhere from 1-15 minutes late. That would make me freak out too much. I still can get breakfast at McD’s before catching the bus since well the bus stop it right in front of it. All that is still cheaper than the taxi haha.

So, I guess you can say I am adjusting nicely out here.

Ok, now for it to get a bit serious and well blehish too..what is blehish? haha

Mr. Pilot has overstepped his boundaries. He called the church out here and gave them my contact info. That’s something I hate with a passion. I know hate is a strong word but I cannot stand people doing that. I barely like giving out my own number. If I don’t give you my number you shouldn’t have it. The only other way is if the person asked if they could give it or my id to some app. That’s the only way people get my info. Instead, he gave out my info without asking. That has me upset. I have ignored all the messages.

Then, he wanted to invite himself over to take me to the church and introduce me to them THIS WEEKEND. I already told him I’m not even in the country this weekend. You can’t go planning stuff like that.I had to remind him he can come if he wants to, I won’t even be in Korea. Then he just instantly assumed I would go next weekend. I was like no, I didn’t agree to this. This is my life. I just moved and started a new job. I need time to adjust to it all myself. I don’t like having people tossed into my plans. Strangers, friends, or family. I don’t like it. You must ask first.

I also like to do things alone. I just want to be alone. I want to take in things by myself, not depending on someone. That’s no fun. I like discovering things on my own. Not having someone show me where everything is. If I have questions I can look it up and if I really want to know I can ask my co-workers who shockingly speak more English than at my previous school.

But, I don’t know after him doing that yesterday without my permission and then getting messages from people of the church here I feel absolutely irritated. That’s too much. He’s not respecting me as a person whatsoever. I cannot handle that and will not put up with it. Once again this is my life and I can make my own decisions without him needing to know anything. My parents don’t do this to me, he shouldn’t even try. Yet, he has definitely gone too far. Ugh

Now, I’m just irritated. Yes, that’s an understatement.

He’s not the only one that has done stuff. Someone else has done worse for quite a while it seems while “hiding” it from me. I still found out.

The frustration of being screwed over by people who “care”. If you really cared you would think about how I felt about what you did.

One part of my life is happy but most of it I’m upset and hurt by people I thought I could trust at least a little. Let’s just say the people I fully trust is becoming more and more limited. I’m done.

I just want to enjoy work, talk to decent friends I know I can depend on when I finally need to depend on someone, enjoy life, and actually just maybe find a guy just for me. Is that too much for me to ask for? Why can’t I have a little happiness without someone trying to rip it away from me every single freaking time?

Ugh. I’m glad I’m going to Japan alone this weekend. I need to be alone for a bit. I think even when I come back I’m just going to spend more weekends alone. I’m tired.

I haven’t had legit alone time since what? September/October? After my surgery and when I wasn’t allowed to really go anywhere besides the hospital. From November until now I have been doing something. It’s exhausting. I don’t like being around people that often without having alone time. It throws me off balance and then I’m all bleh about everything. I need time to think and organize what’s going on in my own life without others basically bothering me.

Let’s just say this move is a new beginning. I guess I’m being selfish. But I have to think about myself too. Starting this month I will take a look at everything and well some people need to go. They just need to. I cannot keep going in life with people who have hidden intentions and are not actually friends or whatever they try to portray to be. I never liked having a lot of friends. I just need a couple of really good ones. I guess it’s time to weed everyone out. Most people gotta go though.

Anyways, I should sleep. Still gotta get up early for work tomorrow.

Until next time~