Maybe it’s time to walk away and move on

Mr. Military I tried. Tried so hard but I can’t. I need someone to tell me when there’s an issue not hide and stay quiet. Talking all this stuff and actual actions are two different things. I can’t read minds and won’t pretend I can. I can be understanding for so long.

Yes, he’s nice. He has a lot of great qualities but it’s like he doesn’t believe in himself enough or something. He goes from being “I’m a strong man.” To “maybe I can…I’m not sure. Ok I can’t. ” with many things. I’m not saying he has to be some super guy. Just be honest. Don’t put up a front that I couldn’t buy into from the beginning. Don’t continue to try to impress when being yourself was good enough.

I liked him for who he was not who was pretending to be. But he kept this…front up like it was suppose to make him look better and when it fails he goes silent trying to hide the fact he’s embarrassed.

That…all that I cannot do. I can’t talk to him if he’s not going to be himself. The trying to impress and be your type thing is frustrating and he seems not to get it.

If I have to walk away and move on I can. I won’t waste my time with somone pretending to be something they aren’t. Especially when I liked them perfectly the way they were.

It’s sad but oh well. I realize what I want and what I will deal with.

I’ve done all I could. It’s on him now. If he responds fine if not well, it’s one less thing to worry about. I can pretend he doesn’t exist anymore. I didn’t know he was here the entire time I was. A few months of knowing is nothing. I’ve been through worst things. It might hurt a little but I can get over it like everything else.

Being alone has made me stronger. Hmmm… We shall see what the future holds.

Until next time~!