Farewell 2016~ hello 2017

I know 3 posts in one day. I had to catch up.

2016 has been all over the place.

From meeting Mr. Ghetto for the first time in person, going to Europe, moving then going to Japan all in less than a month was crazy enough.

Then, after maybe a month at my current school everything was going downhill. Car accident, depression, and things just felt awkward here. I wanted to leave so many times. Not just the school but as I have mentioned before I wanted to truly leave Korea.

Cut off clingy Mr. Pilot, summer came. More Mr. Ghetto, I went home to the states for the first time in almost exactly 3 years. Yet, he was the first person I met that I knew in the states. Saw my family. Spent time in Cali again with that man and an old friend I haven’t seen since KU (Korea University) days.

Came back to work just doing whatever. Actually thought about staying at the school. Got injured twice on the bus within a month. Was stalked by a kid to my house. And yeah was really ready to just leave.

Mr. Pilot and church mates did visit. That wasn’t too bad.

Job hunting was stressful. Kept getting job offers in the countryside when I am tired of the countryside. Also, wasn’t going to take a paycut when I am trying to survive off of what I make now. Korvia just didn’t seem like they were trying or cared. I have some other thoughts byt shall keep them to myself.

Went to my old recruiter that got me my first job. Had to put him straight when he was trying to do the same. I explain to him why I was so difficult about where I want to be and how much money I would accept. Less than a week of working with him, he found a job that fit my criteria and I agreed to take the position that was offered.

So, I like I said in my previous post I will move soon.

Aside from all that, I have to get healthier. I slacked off this year. So much was tossed at me and I let it get the best of me. I have to focus and work on myself again. No one else can do it for me.

Hmmm what else? Went on dates. None of them were good besides with Mr. Ghetto. He set the bar too high for the rest. I don’t know if it is a blessing or a curse still.

I know he keeps popping up. He…bleh

Why aren’t we dating? It’s a mutual agreement that only we can understand. There’s a lot of thought that has gone into it. Also, I am the main one against it.

Guys don’t last that long around me. The ones I care about worry me the most. Family is one thing but anything romantic freaks me out a bit. First guy I dated awhile ended up being injured a lot. He was fine later but ugh so nerve wrecking. So stayed single for a bit, then my last boyfriend, ended up dying (I wrote about this in another post). I feel like I am cursed or something when people especially men get too close to me. So, yeah.

Friends are fine but a relationship scares me. I don’t want to lose another person….

I care about Mr. Ghetto a lot. Maybe too much against my will. He already gets injured enough on his own. I don’t want anything happening to him which is why I keep myself a bit distant. Even though that man makes it nearly impossible. ?

Even the other week he made me wish I could hit him on his head through the phone. He is someone I can depend on even when I feel like I should depend on only myself. He is constant to follow through with what he says. His actions show so much that they surprise me even though they shouldn’t. Heck he is the only person I answer my phone for almost instantly when he calls. I don’t even worry about him flaking or being shady. He is honest with me like I am with him. I know how he works and understand it. He is a support beam in my life I didn’t know that I really needed. So, he is someone I can see in my life for a long time even if it is just a friend. I rather it that way than no way at all.

The crazy man has made a huge impact on my life so quickly. Tsk tsk.

Aside from that I realized who my true friends are. I also realized a lot about myself this year. Things I need to work on inside and out. Which is a good way to look at it.

This year has been insane. So many horrible things yet there has been so many great things about it too. So, I wouldn’t want to forget it all. Just omit a ton of the bad stuff. ?

Now I am dazing out. Less than 2 hours of this year left.

So um yeah, I hope next year will be a better year for everyone.

Here’s to 2017~ Happy New Year’s~!??