Desk Warming… just not one of my days

Desk warming and lack of sleep

I’m doing this all the way through Wednesday, then I’ll finally get into a classroom on Thursday and Friday. It’s not all bad because I get to lesson plan but it’s tiresome especially since I didn’t sleep too well last night. I kept waking up every 30 minutes. It’s so weird. I finally went to sleep without waking up around 1am. So barely four hours of straight sleep. Doesn’t help my neighbor has a dog and there was some construction that happened to start at night the floor above me. They had all day and decide to do it at night, after 7pm.

My face

I have been breaking out from something on the right side of my face. It could be because I was in the heat a lot Saturday or maybe something I ate. I don’t know, but my lips decided they want to shed today too. That normally happens once I have something I’m allergic to, like nuts. However, I don’t recall having anything with nuts in them. Who knows.

What else could go wrong? A facet

As if I’m not having a rough time, turned on my facet this morning to do dishes after breakfast and something just sprung loose scaring me half to death. It was right before I had to leave this morning. So, I have to get that fixed too. Once I tell my co-teacher of course.

Lesson planning

I have been wrecking my brain to come up with something for first graders. They barely know Korean let alone English. Having to think super basic has been a bit difficult. I don’t deal with little ones like that on a daily basis so it might be a challenge. I know creating an after school plan was. Now I’m working on the plan for second graders. I don’t know why but they tend to teach them almost the same exact thing. Probably so they can get a better grasp…maybe? I don’t know.

The right choice?

I’m tired and frustrated. This morning I actually sat there and wondered if I made the right choice to come over here and teach. I want to cry. My major was International Studies (politics) and minor in Asian Studies. That’s my thing. Everyone here is all “Oh…so complicated, teaching should be easy.” Yes, it should but you are responsible for little ones in a foreign country to learn your language correctly so they can succeed in the future on a global scale. Not to mention you have to dance and sing. I’ve been doing serious presentations for years now, not let’s sing and dance together type of presentations. That’s a lot of pressure.

Maybe things will straighten out later. I haven’t been here two weeks, so I’m still adjusting and trying to figure out things like my hot water or the trash system. This is just how I feel right now. I still have 50 weeks to figure out how I feel. Plus, when I did come into to school this morning the kids saying “Hello teacher!” can brighten anyone’s day.

UPDATE:

Ok I was going all little Miss Depression and was wondering if I should head home during the holidays. Then like 20 minutes after I posted this it was time for lunch. I was all -.- eh…but then one of my co-workers, the guy from the other post was like “bap…eat….lunch…come.” So I went along with him and the other new teacher.

We sat down then some of my students were all “AH!!!! HELLO AISHA TEACHER!!!!” sitting down beside me. To be honest I thought my eyes were going to flood over, but I held back the tears. *sings DBSK/TVXQ’s Holding Back the Tears* Sorry random old school kpop moment.

Just when I was sitting here today thinking I just might not be cut out for any of this…they… my co-workers and students made me feel like I belong, at least somewhat. I’ll never belong fully because I am disposable. ESL teachers are everywhere. But it was a warm gesture. Now back to planning.

Another update:

The new teacher made me some iced coffee just now. I don’t drink my coffee cold. It’s just something I don’t do, coffee was always hot to me and so in my brain it should always be that way. But she’s always a sweetheart and went out her way to make it so I accepted. This coffee is good hot or cold. I swear it’s so smooth. I like it. I know my sister is like HA! I KNEW IT! Because a few days before I left home we had a lunch date and she made me try hers and I was all :O *sticks out tongue and shivers* “COFFEE SHOULD BE HOT!!! NOT COLD! OMG” and Now I’m all “Ooooo that’s good and refreshing.” Maybe it was the brand or something. Who knows?