Thoughts on my recent and future changes

Feels like I’m doing a lot of changes this year.

Didn’t go to Itaewon today. I ordered hair stuff from Amazon. I know what I wanted and knew I could get it there. So it was much simpler that way.

Aside from that. The changes I have made so far feels like only the beginning of something better.

Moved, getting rid of people that don’t fit into my life for various reasons, finally travelled to places I wanted to go, got contacts and actually going home in a couple months to visit.

Now I’m thinking about joining a gym hopefully in the next week or two. I spotted it when I first walked around to explore. I pass it everyday when going to and from work. Even looked it up online. Seems like they are still kind of new because they have more updates and information now compared to February.

After losing a good bit of weight and putting on some during the winter like always, I decided I need to step up my game. I’m not completely happy where I am at.

I have been pretty steady weight wise for the past year allowing my body to adjust since I lost around 70 pounds. Now it’s time to get serious. I guess I am tired of still being overweight for so long. I have always wanted to get healthy not even the six pack or anything. Just a healthy weight/size that I feel comfortable at.

I have nothing else to do half the time. I don’t really go out. I don’t feel like going to Seoul spending money for no reason. If I am going to spend money let it be on making myself better. Right?

It’s not going to be easy. I might question myself constantly. At first, I was worried about what people might say and such but now I don’t really care. I want to go to make myself healthier and strengthen up.

Plus, I realized I have a ton of energy that I need to burn off somehow. I can sleep a max of 6 hours straight before waking up. It’s rare to get 6 hours. It’s normally 3~4 then I wake up for anywhere between 30 minutes~2.5 hours if I can go back to sleep again. If I can’t go back to sleep well, I’m functioning off of the sleep I got before waking up. Other than that I’m up most of the time feeling basically wired. I always feel like doing a ton of stuff like I slept for 10 hours and suddenly want to walk around, clean and etc at 3am. The only time I can sleep without waking up is if my body is physically exhausted.

So, in order to do that I’m going to need to exercise. I’m not getting enough movement in during my normal days. I have noticed that my body tends to ache and such if I don’t move around enough. So once again I have to listen to my body.

Like I have said before I’m tired of saying I want to do things and either take forever to do it or never do. This year I am trying my hardest to do the things I have put off constantly either from fear or something else.

So hopefully soon I will start hitting the gym to get fit. I use to go in college and loved it. It was a great way to spend my mornings before classes and clear my mind. I felt more alive and ready to take on the day. When I did it in the afternoons it was still great. Got to release some stress and go home clear headed, sore but feeling nice.

But yeah those have been my thoughts for the past month or so.

Until next time~