Blast from the past

Alright so yesterday it seems people from the past want to message. 

The main one?

Mr. Engineer from July of 2015. That was the first and last time I saw that man. Remember he kept cancelling plans, or having random business trips that apparently made him to busy to even squeak out a simple message like “sorry, business trip” or anything. Then, he disappeared for a bit and well I cut off communication because what was the point?

Yet, once again back in March of last year, right after I moved he decided to send a message. To which I still wanted nothing to do with him. Again, what was the point? After what he already did there was no need to waste any time and be all “Oh, maybe.” No, there is no maybe.

Then, yesterday he decided to send a message saying he misses me. Like how are you going to suddenly miss me? You met me once almost 2 years ago. So much stuff has happened. I have met other guys, I have been in the hospital, been to a funeral, moved, stalked, concerts, and aged in general. 

Heck apparently he has been in China since April and just came back to Korea. Why are you messaging me?

What does he miss? The idea of me or something? Give me a break. I don’t miss him because there is no need to. He didn’t even build up a decent friendship foundation. I can’t miss someone that I met once and didn’t even try to stay in contact. I do not work that way. Then, he wants to meet up. Why? I have no reason to see him. There is nothing to meet for. He is basically an annoying stranger at this point. tsk

Then another annoyance is Mr. Pilot. Decided to say happy new years and ask how I’m doing. Like yeah same to you and I have had better days. What’s the main reason for you messaging?

And ahoy mate~ he was asking how my job hunting was going. Like why does that bother you so much? Told him GEPIK is all going to be EPIK next year. There may be a few random GEPIK schools but who knows. Most of them already are way out in the countryside and I refuse to do the countryside anymore after everything that has happened. I am tired of it.

So told him I am done with public schools. Then, he was all “But you need to leave there soon right?” and blah blah blah

I’m irritated just thinking about it. And I told him, yes I am leaving. Leaving the school and city. I will move north.

Then he asked if he needed to help look for me a job near Yangpyeong. Once again…WHY?! No, I am moving because I have a job lined up. I wouldn’t know where I am moving if I didn’t have a job offer already. Not like I just bought an apartment and then decide to work wherever I wanted to. 

I told him to not even do that. There is no need for it, ever. I have things worked out. I’m not moving back to Yangpyeong. There’s honestly no reason for me to move back there. What for? Church? Sorry but not really. They all have to realize there is nothing making me having to stay in Korea for life. When I am tired I can always leave to go back to the states, to which that is my home country. Not saying I would but I don’t have to stay here. I definitely don’t have to limit myself to one area that I don’t want or need to be in either for some guy that is a “friend”. If that is not controlling I don’t know what is.

It is like he is trying to force me back to the area. For what? So he can always just make plans for me. I will never have any free time because outside of work I would be in church. Church is great and all but hearing straight Korean for hours on in and it’s mostly about the Bible when you aren’t that fluent can give you a major migraine. To make it worse, the church thing feels like a cover up for him. The church members understand that people move away in general and wish the best for you. They may wish to check and see how you are doing and such but won’t force you into anything. Him on the other hand takes it to secret levels. It is frustrating. Ugh…You can’t keep someone that doesn’t want to be kept.

Two men that have frustrated me so much. I swear, neither one of them makes sense. Bleh

Until next time~ 안녕