Desk warming and skipping…
Ok, I was totally going to post multiple times this week and then once again I didn’t. My bad.
Anywho, this week is seriously nothing but deskwarming. Which means I come into work for almost 9 hours just to sit here and waste time to keep myself alive.
Except for yesterday. Why? I was curious if they would even notice and I didn’t feel like coming in so guess what? I didn’t even bother to leave my apartment. Well except to go to the doctor to make sure I didn’t do more damage to myself than I think with that fall 2 weeks ago. I bruised my tailbone, so it hurts when I sit or lay a certain way. -.-
Anywho, back to skipping work. That is the first time I ever just went “Screw it I’m not going” to anything in my life that I technically have to go to. So, work and school.
My thing is
#1 I come in and basically just waste their electricity trying to keep myself entertained with whatever I can find online while trying to stay warm. They still haven’t replaced the heater in this thing, it’s been 3 months since I told them.
#2 No one cares that I am here or not. I may see one or 2 people in the 9 hours that I am here. I have gone plenty of days with no one seeing me when it’s a break. Even longer without speaking one word. I have honestly gone a good week without saying a word to anyone because I do most of my talking at work when I teach and I tend to be home during the weekends so I speak to no one most of the time. I remember one day I was skyping with family and was like “Omg this is the first I have said a word in 8 days” didn’t even realize it. Especially since I tend to message most of my friends. Bleh~
#3 After today, tomorrow is my last full day.
#4 I was able to have a hot lunch finally. For some “odd” reason this break they now go out to eat (of course I am not invited) and they lock the office. They know I go in there to heat up my lunch, but they lock it now. There is another microwave in the “finance” office but one admin lady seems to have a problem about me using it. So, after I used it Monday quickly to warm up my food partially because it seemed my presence was irritating to her I decided to not bring in anything that needs to be warmed up. So basically if I don’t get something from the bakery or kimbap, I will skip lunch. It’s still too cold to be eating cold food in a partially cold office. My body can’t take all of that without having issues, so yeah.
#5 I honestly stopped caring just like how they never cared. Last week that “lunch” and what was said finished made me stop caring. I will never come back to this place in the future after my contract is up.
#6 No one realized I was missing. Really, no one.
So, yes~ This has been my lovely desk warming week.
This place is messing with my mental health. Well it has since the beginning. It feels like I did something horrible and this was my punishment. I almost decided to go back “home” or at least leave Korea because of this mess. I’m just glad I get out of here soon.
Now, to catch up on my dramas. Until next time.
안녕~