Had a job lined up but…

Decided not to take it. I can’t explain it fully but there were a few things off. Only 2 other foreign teachers work there and well they are engaged. The place is understaffed to the point when I was there Friday I randomly had to teach a few classes. The contract wasn’t even supposed to start until the 18th.

Also, some of those classes are legit against our visa so um yeah wasn’t going to do that. I instead just had conversations in each of the classes to avoid doing anything illegal.

Plus, it is too far and the load work would be insane. That on top of this legal stuff I have going on wasn’t going to work. I have to be at the places to sign and get the paperwork in person during regular working hours. Living almost 2 hours away one way would never work without me either losing pay or vacation days. They may be saying they are ok with it now and then do that mess. Nope~ Doesn’t help I would be taking a pay cut too on top of all that.

I also just didn’t see myself living in the place that was picked out. I felt too weird just being driven there. Maybe it is the fact I have been stalked intensively previously and the area just didn’t feel that safe to me to watch my own back.

Too many areas for bad stuff to happen and too far for anyone I actually know to get to me.

Granted the children were absolutely amazing. One kid is so bright I wish I could take him with me. But I can’t work there. I just can’t.

I was supposed to move yesterday (It’s after midnight now) but didn’t. Heck, they were trying to pressure me to move Saturday. No one can do it on such short notice.

At the end of the day, seems like something may go down. Like the couple making a run for it once another teacher actually signs on. Granted they have been there 5 or 6 years (heard differently from both throughout the day). The one I shadowed was supposed to have a sub so she could go to England but the substitute never showed up. Not a good sign. Especially when they are understaffed already. That made no sense to me.

But yeah, overall I am not going to do it. Going to look for something in Seoul. Will stick to that. I have to follow my gut. Switch my visa over later today and take my time to find a decent job. I don’t want to end up in another stressful situation like the job I just finished or the school before it.

Plus, I need to get myself together. I am not 100% ok. Not even 60%. My mind has been all over the place. My health is a mess too. So I need to actually relax and enjoy life a bit. The past year and a half, actually more than that, has been one thing after another. I haven’t been able to catch a break. Between things back home and whatever life is here has drained me.

I just want to be able to do simple things again. Read a book, chill in a cafe, explore a bit (depending on the weather), let my skin breathe more without makeup, and watch some movies and dramas. At my first job, I was able to do all that while working.

Basically, I need to find the simple pleasures in life again. I haven’t been too happy in general and definitely not about life or even living if I am honest. So, I will do a mini break to gather my thoughts and find my own peace again.

There is a lot more stuff I need to update on, but it is late. Now I should sleep so I can wake up like a normal person. ?

Until next time. 안녕~