He gets me

Ugh~I am thinking about Mr. Gucci. I was so upset. Like Beyonce upset. I always say I value open communication. That was what had me mostly upset. Since it’s been a few months I was heated.

But…after hearing everything, I completely understand why he basically shut himself in and worked almost non-stop. If anything I felt for him. The poor man went through a lot in a short amount of time. I was honestly just happy he reached out to me. He was afraid to though. He thought that I hated him. For the first few minutes he had that look like he was afraid anything he said would be taken the wrong way.

He kept apologizing. I lost count. And as I have said before I have a soft spot for him. Bleh~~~ basically a weakness on my part ? Yet at the same time I couldn’t bring myself to even block him on one form of communication all this time. He didn’t deserve it and I guess my gut feeling was right. He is still a gentleman. I found out a bit more about him which explains quite a bit. Which made it even harder to be like “yeah I am still mad.” Plus, it’s hard for me to stay upset unless you really did something wrong. And~those people I cut out of my life. So yeah.

He, however just needed a hug. To be comforted. He seems used with being tossed away by females important to him. I won’t say more on it right now due to his privacy. Nevertheless, it explains so much.

This made me realize how much I actually missed him. Not common at all on my part, but hey apparently it happens. I can’t put it into words fully yet, but I just honestly missed him. His seriousness mixed with some goofy behavior. How he is a pure gentleman and honestly acts so sweet it may give me diabetes. ?

The way he looks when he is thinking, the way he smells, playing in his hair, and even just holding his hand. Ha~ oh sweet Jesus what has happened to me?

But I think what got me the most is just being able to lay in his arms, talk about any and everything while going to sleep. Not a worry in the world. I…for once felt comforted without asking for it. That means a lot.

I just got teary eyed and it’s after 2am. Lord bless my soul ?

Anyways, but yeah figured I should explain a bit more on how he was forgiven. He must have done well in a past life. I am not normally this nice, forgiven, or with emotions for many people. Especially men. ? We shall see what the future holds.

Until next time~ 안녕~