Coteacher issues, frustrations, and miscommunication
So…this morning was all over the place.
First, the camera and stuff weren’t working for my Tuesday reading broadcast of a book. In which the teacher who helps me with it, forgot at first. Like why else would I walk all the way to her desk and say excuse me? I never do that. So no reading today. Which I’m glad because my voice was crap, but I liked the book I checked out. 🙁
Then right before I was about to walk to class they asked about me being prepared for an Autumn Festival. I was like what? I know nothing of this. So they canceled the English part (not for long). Coming to find out it’s for the talent show that I still haven’t had time to prepare for thanks to open classes and the kids going on trips.
My old co-teacher kakao talked me about it. I talked to one of the 6th grade teachers to get it straightened out. I wanted to do my 2nd graders, but there’s no time. My 3~6 graders will remember things by Friday let alone next Friday. I got this.
It was just frustrating that most of my morning, like 4 hours was based on that. I’m like leave me alone. If the principal said to not worry about it, then why press it? The parents wanted it so last minute. The 6th grade teacher is like “no you do.” I’m like whatever fine, I have stuff ready anyways. Just let me do my job! gahh~
Doesn’t help once again I had to get on the 6th graders. I know they are leaving soon but come on behave. I have almost no patience right now. I didn’t know I could get so loud myself since I’m normally pretty quiet. I never had to do this in my life. Ugh…My 5th graders were ok. I don’t know. Then my new co-teacher is messing up their (5th and 6th) English. Like she will say things wrong. I’m standing there like omg no….it’s not “Who’s bigger bag?” Like what? Then some other things she said completely wrong today. I was dying.
I was just highly frustrated. Went to lunch super early. Sat down and ate, the lunch ladies finally understand I don’t want a lot of food. I didn’t talk to anyone, no nods anything. This is when I talked to the sixth grade teacher about the talent show. She came and sat down in front and started talking. They keep calling it different names. Stick to one, and some things they call it means something completely different, hence the confusion. *Sigh*
By then I was highly upset trying to eat. I don’t think I was calm since I was alone this morning. New guy came, I didn’t look at him directly once. I didn’t even speak to him this morning, because I didn’t realize it was him walking by until it was too late. I saw him looking while eating and I kept staring at my tray. I just did not want to talk to anyone, not even a nod or eye contact. I finished and left.
Then the 6th grade teacher comes to me about something going on the 20th for foreign teachers out here. She told the principal I’m going to go before even asking me! I was like whatever. Fine, leave me alone.
I’m not going on the school trip for the faculty that’s that weekend. I made plans before they came to me and I’m not going to change. Because I don’t have friends out here doesn’t mean I can’t make plans. I highly doubt I’ll feel any closer to them after spending the weekend with them. That’s just how I feel right now. What we going to talk about? Seriously. I don’t need the topic going into why I don’t have a boyfriend and mess. Just let me be.
Then found out they took the awesome new printer we had out and gave back the old one. I was like NOOOOOO~! my English feature! Which I stopped using and used the Korean but still. To make things better, my computer was completely not connected to even the regular printer. Like yeah let’s make Aisha even more upset today. I wanted to cry from frustration.
Finally later computer guy comes to fix it. *Sigh*
My new co-teacher decided she wants to give a ton of tests. Which in turn means I have to give them and do all the talking. Nice right? No. Even on the past lessons. I’m like you can’t just go back and do that. Ugggghhhh… I have a stack on my desk from her printing for an hour straight. I have to suddenly copy some in the morning too.
I went into the room that has the paper and stuff, it’s like a teacher’s lounge. Coming to find out they made the desk in there the new guy’s desk. Explains why he’s on the 2nd floor now. Poor dude is away from everyone though. Kind of lucky too. I went to get paper but I had to reach over his stuff. I hated that. Then, I saw his schedule.
Poor man. It’s insane! From 9-4:30pm it’s booked solid. Like who runs around with kids all day like that with the only real break being lunch? Granted he has like 5-10 minutes between classes but barely. That explains why he eats his food like it might fly from his tray. I’d be starving too. And it’s cold now. Gahh~ Only Mondays and Fridays have a bit more relaxing time. I was like no wonder why he was dressed nice yesterday.
But yeah, then later I was cleaning up my desk because there were some things there before I got there. Completely useless. I didn’t want to see it anymore so I decided to put it in the room where we tend to put all the books. The teacher’s lounge. New guy wasn’t in there earlier and the door was still open so I was like ok, I can go why he’s outside.
Ha~ he’s inside. I was like *bows*. He stopped what he was doing, stood up and bowed. I was like -.- we went from greeting each other more friendly to silent formal bows.
Then I thought about earlier today. He looked kinda sad. He already seems that way in general and shy, but today was different. Plus he’s been injuring his hands (saw the white tape around the fingers and band-aids).Then later after I got home, I realized it might be my fault why he looked sad, not getting injured.
I didn’t say anything this morning. I ignored him basically all day. And it just happens to be after he handed me a tray yesterday and was all happy while saying “Hi Aisha~!”. Which doesn’t mean anything that I know of, but still. Only to have me stand offish today and we return to the silent bows. One would think I didn’t like what he did yesterday which was just a friendly gesture and decided to pretend he doesn’t exist. Sorry new guy! T_T
I feel like a horrible person. That is not what I meant to do. I was ignoring everyone basically. But he shouldn’t have been ignored. *sigh* I’ll apologize tomorrow.
He’s the closest person I have to a friend there. Plus he seems to be the only person around my age. Can’t go making enemies. And with each passing day I’d say his English is the best still. blah. I hope tomorrow goes well. I can’t deal with these bad days.
And what’s up with it being foggy every single day?!
Until next time~ probably like tomorrow.