Mr. Military

So, heard from him yesterday after like a month of nothing.

I know. Shocking right?

I gave in and sent a message that he read but didn’t reply. So I let sit for 2 weeks before messaging yesterday. Though I knew he would reply after that one. 😛

Long story short. Here’s the main part of le message.

He said:

“I felt a little bit awkward after we kissed and didn’t feel comfortable sending messages just in case you were mad at me because of it. I didn’t know how to address it or how I was feeling because I never felt like that before. But I’m happy you aren’t mad or hate me. Also, I’m really happy you are still talking to me.”

So he didn’t know what or how to say any of this within a month. On top of that, in the end he was glad to see I still wanted to even talk to him because he thought I might have hated him.

-.- seriously?

Yep.

Do I hate him? Never. He’s a good guy. Well he seems like it.

First of all, he kissed me. He made each move not me. I just well uh responded. It’s that 2nd one I think that got him. Because well it was more than a simple peck. He even said sorry right afterwards. Which of course is something I’m going to remember and I knew there had to be a reason behind it. I mean he ripped the thing under my tongue and I was bleeding. Like…that’s horrible.

Second, guys never make it to actually kissing me, he’s the first here. I’m kind of eh about how quickly he got through my personal barriers. I normally have my guard up strong yet with him…I don’t know. I’m not even really nervous around him like I thought I would be. It’s kind of odd for me. Heck if anything I should be the one feeling awkward and not wanting to talk to him. I was the one with a puddle of blood in my mouth.

Ugh…anyways third, if I was mad I could have just slapped him right then not keep him around.

Gahh…

Another thing…He’s not as macho as he makes out to be. I knew it from the beginning. Ok, he’s strong and all that good stuff, he wouldn’t be where he’s at now in the military if he wasn’t. Maybe…eh. So it’s not like he’s some wimpy guy. Far from it. He has solid muscles. Yes, I know from first hand experience. *coughs* Anyways… He’s like any other man. He has this soft side that he doesn’t show often. I guess you can say some of his barriers goes down around me too. Which he is not use to either. Like letting me know he’s not good with horror movies yet sat through one in the pitch black dark. Muhahaha~ He also has this thing for counting how many good points he had for goodness sakes. Found out I like guys who can sing he went “Yes! Another point for me!” He always want to look good in front of me like some Mr. Perfect.

After showing what he calls flaws he got all shy and afraid. Like I wanted him to be anyone else but himself. *sigh* This man…If you can snore without irritating me then you’re good. Especially since I tend to like pure quietness.

We are the absolute worse. Pretty strong and independent separated yet awkward together. We are out of our comfort zones and trying to figure out why the other one is making them that way. Tsk.

Go figure.

Odd moment when I wasn’t even surprised when he told me. If anything I had to laugh. Heck I had weeks to think about it and piece together things he said and how he acted. Which was why I gave him space too.

Another thing. He’s in the military here. Half the time the only females they see are on tv. Some of the guys have wives. Normally ones in his position or higher ups which makes sense since they tend to be older. Most of his friends are military and married or engaged. The other soldiers have girlfriends while they do their mandatory service. Though sadly a lot of them (with girlfriends) break up because well the man is busy, can’t make dates every weekend of whatever and barely has time to call or message. So the poor guys end up single because most girls love having their guy in reach. Bleh. I think that played a role in his actions/feelings also.

But yeah we shall see how this goes with Mr. Military. In all honestly I find his awkwardness cute. He doesn’t know what to do. I’m just going with the flow. 😀

Until next time~!

Edit from 32 year old me. Wow…just wow…I’m so glad I don’t think about guys like this anymore or try to see all the good in them. There were so many red flags in this entire situation. Thing is…this Aisha has no clue what she’s going to find out later.